jealous whiskey

09.13

we went walking in the hills above the highway

In your coat I was thinking maybe you could take me far away

and bury the cage i had just sprung

to a place where everything shined and no one was falling down

falling down drunk

I recall the first time that I saw that I was

back in trouble with the thing that I was always running from

the monster that murdered my father

the spectre that spoke to my mother

and made her laugh when no one said anything funny

and made her cry whenever she thought of her daddy

and you just seemed so ever loving level headed

you just looked so unlike the other ones

and I must admit I was looking for someone to save me

I know I am, I am such a weak woman

I am such a weak woman

And my eyes ran red till it felt like they were bleeding

and I cried cried cried when I was asleep and dreaming

And I tried tried tried to outrun all those demons

but the whiskey always came back jealous,

Screaming

And all that I wanted was to stack my wood beside yours

and live in the mountains and watch the storms roll in

we’d crack eggs into our cast iron skillets

and sing sweet songs to our green-eyed children

and all that I wanted was someone who wasn’t addicted

it was a foolish dream

All that I wanted was someone to put down the bottle

and hold me

but you won’t hold me

But hope springs eternal

Hope springs eternal

Hope springs eternal

And I just can’t help holding out

And no one’s gonna save me

no one’s gonna save me

no one’s  gonna save me

I’d better learn to help myself

We went walking in the hills above the highway

in your coat i was thinking maybe you could take me far away